Lauri Robinson by Testing the Lawman's Honor

Author:Testing the Lawman's Honor [Honor, Testing the Lawman's]
Language: eng
Format: epub, mobi
Published: 0101-01-01T00:00:00+00:00

Chapter Five

Spencer drew in a deep breath, to brace against her answer and to give him the strength to continue. Kissing her had taken him back again. To the night by the pine tree. He wouldn’t give up so easily this time. “Why not? Give me one good reason, and I’ll walk away.” With the ball of his thumb, he rescued a lone tear sliding down her cheek. “But it has to be a very good reason.”

The anguish playing upon her face ate at his heart, but he wasn’t going to stop. “Tell me why, Della. Why won’t you marry me?”

“I got married once before because I thought I wanted a home, and that was wrong. I was wrong. A home wasn’t what I was looking for.”

Half-afraid of her answer, but needing to know, he asked, “Then what is it? What are you looking for?”

She took a deep breath and squared her shoulders, looking him straight in the eye. “Love.”

The floor beneath his feet fell away. He loved her. Had for years, but saying it to himself was completely different than saying it to her. What if she didn’t love him back? He couldn’t head to Texas this time.

“There’s something I need to tell you, Spencer.”

“What?” He hadn’t meant to sound so stern, but a fierce fear squeezed his chest.

“Do you remember that night when you came to say goodbye before going to Texas?” she asked.

Like it was yesterday, his mind screamed as he answered, “Yes.”

“I thought marrying Isaac would give me everything I wanted until that night. Until you kissed me.”

Guilt tried to wiggle its way into his chest, but he wouldn’t let it. He no longer regretted kissing her, matter of fact he’d wished he done it long before then.

She glanced around before saying, “I knew that night I shouldn’t marry Isaac, but I was so set on having a home, of never having to move again…”

Her sorrow ate at him. “You were young, Della, and—”

“That’s an excuse, Spencer. Just an excuse. Yes, I was young, but I had choices. I could have found another position. If only I could have seen beyond sleeping in the same bed night after night. In an odd way I thought a home brought family, love and happiness.” She shook her head. “But it doesn’t. A house is just a house. A home is what the people living in it make it.”

He took her hand, held it between both of his. “You made his house a home, Della. For you and your daughters.”

She turned to gaze at the front door. “But deep down, I’ve always felt as if I don’t belong here.”

The need to explain what he felt deep down escaped before he could stop it. “The entire way to Texas and back I thought about you. Prayed you wouldn’t marry Isaac.”

“You did?”

“Yeah, I did.” It was time to tell her everything. He had nothing left to lose. “I realized I loved you that night, Della, and I still do. I wish I’d known then what I know now.

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